A Life of Faith | Living Purposefully
There is something about this bench and this ocean that brings me back to being 18. So many defining moments in my life came from being here. Watching. Waiting. Praying.
At 18 I had no idea what I wanted to do. I felt the pressure to go to college since everyone in my life around me was going - but time after time I'd sit on this bench. Watching. Waiting. Praying. And time after time I felt the peace of God - a quiet direction in my soul - that I wasn't supposed to go to college...Well, I didn't listen 🙈 and because the pressure to go was so real I figured I'd just apply to "Bible college". That way I could feel better about myself when people asked me, "What are you going to do with your life, where are you going to college??" And I could give them a real answer.
I got accepted and I planned to leave. I remember going for a sunset run one night a few weeks before it was time to go, I always rest on the halfway point and sit at this bench, when I heard the words, "Why are you running from My plans for you?" Tears filled my eyes and as they dripped off of my cheeks I whispered, "Help me to stop running. Help me to trust." That tiny prayer changed everything. I told the school I wasn't coming. And the questions continued to roll in, "What are you doing with your life? Where are you going to college?" Before I wanted to give them a real answer. A concrete answer. Yet, after that night on the bench I learned that my answer WAS real - it was just full of faith. I learned to lean into hope. To trust that in leaning in, I wouldn't fall.
“To have faith is to be sure of the things we hope for, to be certain of the things we cannot see.” Hebrews 11:1
I encourage you to not be afraid to trust God. He loves you so much, and you can place your hope, faith, and trust in Him. He hears your every cry and knows exactly where you're at in your life. Don't be afraid to hope in Him. Jesus faced the cross and defeated death for you - and that is every reason to follow Him, even in times that we can't see. Gods plan for me was better than my plan. It always is. It's not the easier road, but it is by far the better way, the only way I want to go.